I just turned the big 3-0 and leaving my 20’s was like closing a bittersweet chapter of my life even though it only took a day. As I sat and reflected on my 20’s I had so many mixed emotions. I’ve gone through the best days of my life and the worst. I have been through more in my 20’s than most do in a lifetime. I became a mother of 4, I got married, I lost my daughter to cancer, moved to another state, considered a divorce, rebuilt an unbreakable marriage, became a stay at home mom, bought a minivan and started a blog. Even though the bad was the worst anyone could go through I am honestly in a place where I am truly, genuinely happy with what life has given me. You can be happy and heartbroken at the same time.
I have been a mother since I was 16 and I can honestly say that I was always a dedicated mother since the day Adam was born. I have some regrets as a young mother like making decisions that would only benefit me then instead of now and that being college. I never finished and one thing I always told myself was I would have a degree by the time I was 30 and I do not. Life really gave me so many obstacles I had another baby at 21, lost her to cancer at 24, had another baby 25 and another at 28 (obviously being pregnant all the time I never had that “perfect” 20 year old body). I hear all these amazing stories of women getting degrees with some of the most heartbreaking stories and I beat myself up thinking why did I not just take the leap.Another regret in my 20’s is not traveling. I woke up on my 30th birthday and thought “Why haven’t I seen the Grand Canyon?” and was super upset about it.
After reflecting on my “regrets” I thought there is nothing that I can’t do now in my 30’s. I can go back to school but when I think about it, having a degree would not make me any better of a mother and to be honest I am content with just being a mother. It is something I love, it makes me happy and I get to be there for every little accomplishment. I love being a blogger and I enjoy building my husband’s brand with him. All these places I have not been I can go now and I get to experience my first time with my family. My 20’s was my biggest growth mentally and physically. It gave me the confidence to know I can get through anything life throws at me.
I am dedicating my 30’s to my 20 year old self. I will help my kids get through college, I will travel and I will have my “20 year old perfect” body in my 30’s. I am making my 30’s about self care, being happy, healthy, continue to grow as a mother and a wife.
Cheers to 30