A rainbow baby is a baby born shortly after the loss of a previous baby due to miscarriage, stillbirth, or death in infancy. This term is given to these special rainbow babies because a rainbow typically follows a storm, giving us hope of what’s to come. Although Bug was considered a toddler I think of Adan as my rainbow baby and even though Alix was born 4 years after Bug passed she is also my rainbow baby. I was blessed with 2 rainbow children.
The song Somewhere Over the Rainbow by Israel Kamakawiwoʻole was one of Bug’s favorites. When we were in the hospital this song was her comfort. We would sing and dance after her radiation treatments and after we lost her the song had a deeper meaning to me. When I hear it a video plays in my head of Bug’s life from the day she was born, memories of her first smile, her first steps, the day she was diagnosed with cancer, her first dance after surgery, her last day of radiation, singing “Wheels on the Bus” while inserting her port for chemotherapy, how she ate ketchup with her finger all the way to her last breath.
When I read the definition of a rainbow baby I thought of Adan and Alix and how much joy they have brought our family after the storm. I thought of the song and it had a brand new meaning to me and not only represents Bug’s life but it represents Adan and Alix, my family and the song was placed in my life as God’s plan. Bug was not only preparing me for the storm but she gave me a double rainbow.